well, perhaps unsurprisingly, she's holed herself up in her cabin. the door's partially cracked open - she ran in there in a rush, after waking up in snail cabin, because she, well, she's really upset.
by the time magnus gets there, she's got a blanket pulled up over herself, and there's the sound of crying from her bunk.
[Making sure she's alone and then coming in, closing the door behind him. He doesn't know if Flayn wants to see him, but he also knows he's the only person she can talk about everything with.]
Well, she won't tell him to go. In fact, she actually sits up and turns in his direction, though she doesn't unwrap the blanket from around herself. Her eyes are red, and her cheeks are wet with tears. Her face is even more of a mess than the facial wound makes it.]
...you do not need to apologize to me.
[It's not his fault they have the role they have.]
...I wish we could have... somehow known, who was going to...
[...maybe it shouldn't have been sanji. if there had been some way to divine who was going to kill, to step in and kill them first, and keep them safe - flayn would have done it. she would have.
she wouldn't even have made magnus do the bulk of the work.]
Why did we have to kill this week? There was no need - people are doing that without us, so why...? Why do we even have this role?
Listen, tomorrow - you just do what you need to do to keep yourself safe, okay? You don't need to worry about any plans or lying more than they'll make you lie.
But if somebody touches you, I want you to think as hard as you can about how your friends are gonna need your help and you're gonna stay alive to be able to do that.
[This is not the face of someone who wants to be kept safe. If it's down to people who could save everyone here, the four of them should never have died.
She has never been the type to take the lead on things like this. She's followed orders - first, her father's and Seiros's, and then the Professor's and Edelgard's - for each battle she's taken part in. She's gone where directed, healed whomever she could, but here?
Here, she's left to her own devices, and each choice she makes seems more disastrous than the last.]
...all I want to do is tell the truth. But I cannot. [She bites her lip.] I have tried.
How can I possibly help them, when I have been lying to them this whole time?
[He'd like to tell the truth, too. If it was up to him, he'd announce to everyone exactly what had happened last night and let them decide what to do. He's not ashamed of his actions with Sanji - he did his best after drawing a bad card, gave Sanji a fighting chance.
But he can't stand here and lie to the people who cared about him and live with himself easily.]
But there's only two choices here. You keep going, even though it's ugly, or you die. And somebody else takes your place.
[That's harsher than he means, so he'll add.]
I wouldn't judge you if you think you can't keep going. Dying here's not permanent - you can go where the dead are and whichever team wins, I'm sure they'll bring you back.
[She nods. She understands what Magnus means - if she does get caught tomorrow, Winter very well may end up choosing someone else so that he won't have to carry out the duties of a Wicket alone.
And if that's the case, then someone else will be forced to have blood on their hands.]
I want to keep you safe, as well. ...I want to save everyone. I just - I do not know how, and that is... it hurts.
Do me a favor. Do your best to stay alive, and I'll do the same. And then we'll try to figure out some other options, if Winter asks us to do this again.
[As long as they can get past trial, maybe they'll learn something that will help them.]
I think there might be a lot you can do to help, Flayn. I think the fact that you're you, and so many people care about you might be really important.
At some point, somehow, they're going to have to figure out why people are killing at night. And when that happens, if we can get them to understand that they can still trust us, we might have a shot at putting things right.
[jesus christ i can't believe flayn is getting Actual Reapsody Lore and not shitposts]
But... you should be able to get them to understand the same thing.
[Flayn thinks he's pretty great! She finds it hard to imagine that people wouldn't trust him, but, like. She's biased, so.]
...if you think it will help, though... I - I do not wish to lie more than we already have, by placing the evidence we did. I do not think that I can bring myself to mislead them further.
And... I do not think I can live with it if someone innocent is being suspected in our place.
But so long as we find another killer, I... I will keep going.
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well, perhaps unsurprisingly, she's holed herself up in her cabin. the door's partially cracked open - she ran in there in a rush, after waking up in snail cabin, because she, well, she's really upset.
by the time magnus gets there, she's got a blanket pulled up over herself, and there's the sound of crying from her bunk.
oops.]
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[Making sure she's alone and then coming in, closing the door behind him. He doesn't know if Flayn wants to see him, but he also knows he's the only person she can talk about everything with.]
I'm so sorry.
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Well, she won't tell him to go. In fact, she actually sits up and turns in his direction, though she doesn't unwrap the blanket from around herself. Her eyes are red, and her cheeks are wet with tears. Her face is even more of a mess than the facial wound makes it.]
...you do not need to apologize to me.
[It's not his fault they have the role they have.]
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[He meant more in the sense of being sorry for what happened. But also, he does feel like it's his fault, a little bit.
He could have refused to let her be there while it happened. He thought he was doing the right thing, telling her she could help.]
I wish we coulda protected your friends.
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[...maybe it shouldn't have been sanji. if there had been some way to divine who was going to kill, to step in and kill them first, and keep them safe - flayn would have done it. she would have.
she wouldn't even have made magnus do the bulk of the work.]
Why did we have to kill this week? There was no need - people are doing that without us, so why...? Why do we even have this role?
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[He doesn't give more details than that.]
I read it and I think all three teams have to have somebody like us. That's why it's so many.
[So. It doesn't change the calculus, for him. Just makes it more cruel.]
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I hate this place.
[it's said without any real viciousness - she just sounds tired.]
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[Taking a deep breath.]
Listen, tomorrow - you just do what you need to do to keep yourself safe, okay? You don't need to worry about any plans or lying more than they'll make you lie.
But if somebody touches you, I want you to think as hard as you can about how your friends are gonna need your help and you're gonna stay alive to be able to do that.
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She has never been the type to take the lead on things like this. She's followed orders - first, her father's and Seiros's, and then the Professor's and Edelgard's - for each battle she's taken part in. She's gone where directed, healed whomever she could, but here?
Here, she's left to her own devices, and each choice she makes seems more disastrous than the last.]
...all I want to do is tell the truth. But I cannot. [She bites her lip.] I have tried.
How can I possibly help them, when I have been lying to them this whole time?
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[He'd like to tell the truth, too. If it was up to him, he'd announce to everyone exactly what had happened last night and let them decide what to do. He's not ashamed of his actions with Sanji - he did his best after drawing a bad card, gave Sanji a fighting chance.
But he can't stand here and lie to the people who cared about him and live with himself easily.]
But there's only two choices here. You keep going, even though it's ugly, or you die. And somebody else takes your place.
[That's harsher than he means, so he'll add.]
I wouldn't judge you if you think you can't keep going. Dying here's not permanent - you can go where the dead are and whichever team wins, I'm sure they'll bring you back.
But on my end, I wanna keep you safe.
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[She nods. She understands what Magnus means - if she does get caught tomorrow, Winter very well may end up choosing someone else so that he won't have to carry out the duties of a Wicket alone.
And if that's the case, then someone else will be forced to have blood on their hands.]
I want to keep you safe, as well. ...I want to save everyone. I just - I do not know how, and that is... it hurts.
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[As long as they can get past trial, maybe they'll learn something that will help them.]
I think there might be a lot you can do to help, Flayn. I think the fact that you're you, and so many people care about you might be really important.
At some point, somehow, they're going to have to figure out why people are killing at night. And when that happens, if we can get them to understand that they can still trust us, we might have a shot at putting things right.
That's what happened in Reaper's Game, y'know?
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But... you should be able to get them to understand the same thing.
[Flayn thinks he's pretty great! She finds it hard to imagine that people wouldn't trust him, but, like. She's biased, so.]
...if you think it will help, though... I - I do not wish to lie more than we already have, by placing the evidence we did. I do not think that I can bring myself to mislead them further.
And... I do not think I can live with it if someone innocent is being suspected in our place.
But so long as we find another killer, I... I will keep going.