[not again] catchall for ogata

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OH RIP......

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[It's so weird, honestly. Usually, he's the one who's doing the wronging. He almost wants to correct her and say it's impossible. But, well, she did help frame him for murder. Part of him wants to ask for specifics. Whose idea was it? Surely Shinobu's. She doesn't like him, after all. But Flayn had let her, if that was the case, so does it really make a difference?]

... Mostly I'm just angry that you demanded I try to be something besides a killer when even you thought that's all I was.
[That's really what he was hung up on.]

I don't understand why you'd lie to me.

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That...

[...is that what he's been thinking?

Flayn shakes her head.]

That is not all that I thought you were, or think you are. I meant every word that I said to you, Ogata.

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But you still picked me to frame, out of everyone.

[.... WAIT A SECOND.]

You said you were planning on killing me at first, too.
[He'd had been so preoccupied with everything else that this didn't even seep into his brain properly until just now.]

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...yes.

[Flayn looks down.]

I cannot... say for certain what was going through Shinobu's mind, but. ...I thought you stood a fair chance of fighting back.

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[Ogata laughs.]

She doesn’t like me. That ones easy to explain.
[But, hm. Confirmation that it was Shinobu’s choice. As expected but... hm. He can’t decide if it actually makes him feel better or not.]

Against who? Kocho? Or everyone else when suspicion turned against me?
[Both sound pretty insurmountable to him.]

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Against me.

[Shinobu wasn't the only one who had been out there, that night. And when Flayn had agreed to target him -

Well.

She'd already lost one fight against him, back on the island.]

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[Ah.

Well that’s... theres a lot to unpack there.]

I would have killed you.
[With absolute certainty. But he looks... actually troubled by this? And confused.]

Why would you have been the one to do it if it was Kocho’s idea?

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I know you would have.

[...she's really shitty at murder!]

We agreed that... whatever we were to do, we would do it together. I did not wish her to shoulder that burden alone.

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[He thinks this is dumb because he’s sure Shinobu would have killed him pretty easily. She has a sword. It hurts a lot!]

That’s stupid of you... It’s better the way it happened, though. People needed you here.
[As opposed to himself who is not needed!!!]

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[Flatly:]

I helped kill three people, executed a fourth, and got you scapegoated, Ogata. I do not think anyone had much need of me at all.

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So? All those people are alive now. If I hadn’t died, I’d have killed someone, too.

But even while you were doing that, people like Yin Yu were relying on you To support and care for them. I don’t have any use like that.

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...people could have relied on you for that, if you had the time to form those sorts of bonds with them. I took that time from you.

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[Ogata laughs, sharply.]

You should ask someone else who died exactly how likely they think that to be. That’s not the sort of person I am, Flayn.

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...

[She still believes what she said to him the night before his execution. He could be, if given the chance.]

I imagine tensions were rather high for those of you who died. I am not certain that is the best circumstance to be judging from...

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What do you want from me, Flayn? Do you want me to be mad at you?

[Or well, mad again, maybe.]

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[Her brow furrows slightly.]

...I want you to be whatever you... are, I suppose. [muttering:] Oh, that does not make sense.

[Words are hard.]

If you are mad, then be mad. That is fair - what I did contributed to your suffering, and I have no right to tell you not to feel whatever you feel about it. But whatever you do end up doing, I want you to do while knowing all the facts. It feels... wrong, somehow, to conceal the truth of what happened just because I do not want you to be upset with me.

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[Hrm. This is all very challenging. It's all so hard. He didn't HAVE to deal with stuff like this when he was alone and kept it that way. It was easier back then. He was miserable, but can he really say he isn't miserable now, too.]

... I wanted to be a angry, when you all confessed. It was irritating not to be. I even goaded Yin Yu into hitting me so that someone would be.
[OGATA?]

But even though part of me was just glad to know you'd probably been suffering with the guilt all this time, it didn't really make me happy. Neither did Yin Yu hitting me. Not the way it should have. The way it normally does. I've been trying to get him to since we got here, you know.

[He sighs, letting his head fall to rest on his arms folded over his knees.]
It's your fault. I think I'm angrier at you for taking that away from me than anything else.

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...Yin Yu hit you?

[...??????

That, uh, that actually kind of throws her for a loop. She wouldn't have expected that. But that's also not what's the most important part of this conversation, so she bites down on her bottom lip to keep from chiding him about goading him.]

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...what do you think would make you happy?

[There has to be something. Or, if not fully happy - at least something that would make him a little less miserable.

She hadn't meant to take away his only method of coping.]

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How should I know?
[He's never properly been happy. It's always just been... little things. Bitter. This man is so bitter, Flayn. He's become more that than smug over the past several weeks.]

It's terrible, actually, the things the snake was saying, what people were saying about the snake, it felt familiar. It made sense.
[When you kin the final boss and feel gross about it.]

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[Ogata has become espresso.]

...should we have prepared gifts for you as well, then?

[It sounds like a shitpost question, but. Flayn says it completely sincerely, and she looks like she's considering it in great detail.]

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[Ogata laughs, but sadly it's the sharp unpleasant one he normally uses.]

I'm not so desperate and pathetic as to demand gifts from people who don't even like me, Flayn. But, to have something, someone, that's just for you and no one else...

[He shakes his head.]
It's normal to want something like that, isn't it?

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It is very normal to want that.

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I meant everything that I said to you, you know. Even at the trial. I do believe there is someone out there like that, for you.

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... If there's one person, I already found it. But-
[Ugh. His spaghetti. He looks away from Flayn, half mumbling into his sleeve.]

The fact that I ever met Anaido at all is ridiculous. I can't imagine meeting someone like that again.

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I do not think there is only one person.

[just look at lili's ship mess!]

...there are an endless number of worlds out there, Ogata. And an unless number of people on each one of them.