...I want you to be whatever you... are, I suppose. [muttering:] Oh, that does not make sense.
[Words are hard.]
If you are mad, then be mad. That is fair - what I did contributed to your suffering, and I have no right to tell you not to feel whatever you feel about it. But whatever you do end up doing, I want you to do while knowing all the facts. It feels... wrong, somehow, to conceal the truth of what happened just because I do not want you to be upset with me.
[Hrm. This is all very challenging. It's all so hard. He didn't HAVE to deal with stuff like this when he was alone and kept it that way. It was easier back then. He was miserable, but can he really say he isn't miserable now, too.]
... I wanted to be a angry, when you all confessed. It was irritating not to be. I even goaded Yin Yu into hitting me so that someone would be. [OGATA?]
But even though part of me was just glad to know you'd probably been suffering with the guilt all this time, it didn't really make me happy. Neither did Yin Yu hitting me. Not the way it should have. The way it normally does. I've been trying to get him to since we got here, you know.
[He sighs, letting his head fall to rest on his arms folded over his knees.] It's your fault. I think I'm angrier at you for taking that away from me than anything else.
That, uh, that actually kind of throws her for a loop. She wouldn't have expected that. But that's also not what's the most important part of this conversation, so she bites down on her bottom lip to keep from chiding him about goading him.]
How should I know? [He's never properly been happy. It's always just been... little things. Bitter. This man is so bitter, Flayn. He's become more that than smug over the past several weeks.]
It's terrible, actually, the things the snake was saying, what people were saying about the snake, it felt familiar. It made sense. [When you kin the final boss and feel gross about it.]
[Ogata laughs, but sadly it's the sharp unpleasant one he normally uses.]
I'm not so desperate and pathetic as to demand gifts from people who don't even like me, Flayn. But, to have something, someone, that's just for you and no one else...
[He shakes his head.] It's normal to want something like that, isn't it?
[His gut answer is "no fucking way," but since it's Flayn asking he'll actually think about it for more than two seconds.]
Given that I'm really not ruling out death as a viable option at this point, just based on how miserable my life has been up to this point, I should say no, but on the other hand, the idea of having an immortal body that could be shot and damaged as much as I wanted without dying is interesting. [Ogata why are you like this.]
[Frankly for him that just makes it more ideal because he doesn’t want to be immortal that sounds awful. But harder to kill while still being able to die should he want to or someone else was especially dedicated to destroying him (very appealing), but still.... if he really wanted, more time?
He sits up and looks at her, gaze focused and intent.]
Your so-called hypothetical situation is oddly specific, Flayn. [Elaborate, he’s listening.]
[honestly, she can't believe she's having this conversation with him. it never would have happened seven weeks ago. but she is responsible for something terrible that happened to him, so she ought to try to make amends.]
My long life comes from the blood I bear. It is possible to... use it to extend the lives of others. I have done it once before.
[gently looks back at linhardt's ancestors and wonders what the fuck even happened there. they probably thought they needed more healers for the war against nemesis.]
[Ogata has half a mind to just be smug about Flayn finally admitting her profile age was right after all, but probably she would get annoyed with him and maybe rescind this offer she’s vaguely making, so.]
... Are you offering to give me some of your blood? [HE ALSO CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING.]
Yes. Presuming this turns out well, and we are able to return to our homes, my blood ought to have the same properties it did before. If you are interested in visiting many different worlds, I can... ensure that you have the time to be able to do so.
[It seems like he's on board for a moment, but then he frowns again.]
You're just doing this because you feel bad. This is just pity. If you hadn't gotten me killed, you would never make me an offer like this. [There's his terrible cat man pride again.]
Everything you did and said was for your own edification and not because you care about me. [Agitated, his tufted kitty ears going flat against his head.]
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You should ask someone else who died exactly how likely they think that to be. That’s not the sort of person I am, Flayn.
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[She still believes what she said to him the night before his execution. He could be, if given the chance.]
I imagine tensions were rather high for those of you who died. I am not certain that is the best circumstance to be judging from...
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[Or well, mad again, maybe.]
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...I want you to be whatever you... are, I suppose. [muttering:] Oh, that does not make sense.
[Words are hard.]
If you are mad, then be mad. That is fair - what I did contributed to your suffering, and I have no right to tell you not to feel whatever you feel about it. But whatever you do end up doing, I want you to do while knowing all the facts. It feels... wrong, somehow, to conceal the truth of what happened just because I do not want you to be upset with me.
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... I wanted to be a angry, when you all confessed. It was irritating not to be. I even goaded Yin Yu into hitting me so that someone would be.
[OGATA?]
But even though part of me was just glad to know you'd probably been suffering with the guilt all this time, it didn't really make me happy. Neither did Yin Yu hitting me. Not the way it should have. The way it normally does. I've been trying to get him to since we got here, you know.
[He sighs, letting his head fall to rest on his arms folded over his knees.]
It's your fault. I think I'm angrier at you for taking that away from me than anything else.
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[...??????
That, uh, that actually kind of throws her for a loop. She wouldn't have expected that. But that's also not what's the most important part of this conversation, so she bites down on her bottom lip to keep from chiding him about goading him.]
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[There has to be something. Or, if not fully happy - at least something that would make him a little less miserable.
She hadn't meant to take away his only method of coping.]
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[He's never properly been happy. It's always just been... little things. Bitter. This man is so bitter, Flayn. He's become more that than smug over the past several weeks.]
It's terrible, actually, the things the snake was saying, what people were saying about the snake, it felt familiar. It made sense.
[When you kin the final boss and feel gross about it.]
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...should we have prepared gifts for you as well, then?
[It sounds like a shitpost question, but. Flayn says it completely sincerely, and she looks like she's considering it in great detail.]
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I'm not so desperate and pathetic as to demand gifts from people who don't even like me, Flayn. But, to have something, someone, that's just for you and no one else...
[He shakes his head.]
It's normal to want something like that, isn't it?
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[...]
I meant everything that I said to you, you know. Even at the trial. I do believe there is someone out there like that, for you.
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[Ugh. His spaghetti. He looks away from Flayn, half mumbling into his sleeve.]
The fact that I ever met Anaido at all is ridiculous. I can't imagine meeting someone like that again.
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[just look at lili's ship mess!]
...there are an endless number of worlds out there, Ogata. And an unless number of people on each one of them.
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[HE'S STILL DUBIOUS.]
But unlike you, I don't have an endless amount of time to search them all.
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[Flayn bites her lip.]
Speaking completely hypothetically, of course - if it were possible for you to have that amount of time, would you want it?
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Given that I'm really not ruling out death as a viable option at this point, just based on how miserable my life has been up to this point, I should say no, but on the other hand, the idea of having an immortal body that could be shot and damaged as much as I wanted without dying is interesting.
[Ogata why are you like this.]
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[is she considering sharing her blood with him and giving him a Crest if they get their powers back to make up for scapegoating him?
maybe.]
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He sits up and looks at her, gaze focused and intent.]
Your so-called hypothetical situation is oddly specific, Flayn.
[Elaborate, he’s listening.]
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[honestly, she can't believe she's having this conversation with him. it never would have happened seven weeks ago. but she is responsible for something terrible that happened to him, so she ought to try to make amends.]
My long life comes from the blood I bear. It is possible to... use it to extend the lives of others. I have done it once before.
[gently looks back at linhardt's ancestors and wonders what the fuck even happened there. they probably thought they needed more healers for the war against nemesis.]
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... Are you offering to give me some of your blood?
[HE ALSO CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING.]
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[she looks a little unsure, but.]
Yes. Presuming this turns out well, and we are able to return to our homes, my blood ought to have the same properties it did before. If you are interested in visiting many different worlds, I can... ensure that you have the time to be able to do so.
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You're just doing this because you feel bad. This is just pity. If you hadn't gotten me killed, you would never make me an offer like this.
[There's his terrible cat man pride again.]
Everything you did and said was for your own edification and not because you care about me.
[Agitated, his tufted kitty ears going flat against his head.]
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If I did not care about you, Ogata, I would not be trying to make amends at all.
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... Why? You've been angry with me so many times. You should hate me.
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