[not again] catchall for ash

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WEEK 0, SUNDAY

[voidbreaker]

[ lbr here they were on that bus way too long and there are baths right here, so. ash makes an immediate beeline here to shower and change into his home clothes that have the major benefit of not having socks with sandals as the main footwear. yay.

wouldn't it be convenient for us if he ran into a young girl who is about a millenia older than you either on his way there or just as he's leaving? ]

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[they're both on their way out - he's cleaned up, she's cleaned up, and they've gotten changed before stepping out of the stalls on opposite sides of the room. flayn's clothing isn't exactly casual, but at least it isn't socks and sandals.]

...oh! I did not realize you were also here. Hello.

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[ HOLD ME CLOSER TINY DAAANNNCCCEEERRRRRRRRRR— no. ]

Good to know privacy’s a thing in the showers then.

[ ... i mean. ]

Tired of the tye-dye then?

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A bit, yes.

[Mostly she was tired of the booty shorts and the socks with her sandals. She's got the old clothes folded over her arm.]

They were not terribly comfortable.

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[ rip flayn's hip modern aesthetic. ]

And the shoes weren't gonna do much to keep your foot safe if someone on that bus had stepped on it either. [ says the guy who smacked her in the face with a bag, it's fine. ]

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[she looks down at her feet]

Ah... these will not, either.

[sandals... oh, well. she kind of misses her boots.]

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We’re not in really close quarters right now. You’ll probably be fine. [ or we’ll find a clothes shop next week and then we’ll go wild ]

w4, monday

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[whew, okay.

so, where is ash at? because wherever he happens to be - flayn is looking for him. the expression on her face makes it clear enough that she feels guilty, even without coming into contact with him.]

...Ash? Do you have a moment?

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[ he's drinking a coffee in the mess hall and looking kinda tired honestly. ]

I'm not going anywhere until this thing's finished, so sure.

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[oof. well. she wishes he'd been able to get some rest, but. maybe it isn't so surprising that he hadn't.]

...I want to apologize to you. [a beat.] I... um. At the trial, this past weekend...

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[ he just


closes his eyes

so much. ]

Did you cause the issue, or try to fix it?

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[haha

ha.]

...I tried to fix it. After I saw you arguing with each other, I thought it would stop, if...

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[ he takes a sip of his coffee, and then shifts to look at her properly. ]

Team, title, proper description of your power. And we'll call it even.

w4, saturday

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[becks it's so late for you i hope you went back to sleep



anyway! flayn is. wandering. it's not a good night. it's a very bad night, actually, and she's not paying attention to where she's going - so she's liable to bump right into ash when she does come across him, wherever he is.

(hopefully he's paying attention and can dodge it.)]

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[ he is absolutely not paying attention so I guess they’re both gonna collide on emotion share week so that’ll be fun.

flayn gets to experience ash’s personal, ongoing “that’s the secret, I’m always angry” avengers moment, along with a dose of frustration and tiredness. as a treat. ]

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[i am so fucking glad i literally just sent a tag involving emotionshare to someone twenty minutes ago so i can just copypaste it with some tweaking.

there's a deep, pervading sense of loss that cuts sharp and deep, as it's settled in. yin yu isn't coming back. zenitsu isn't coming back. none of them are coming back. she's furious - and there's an intense feeling of self-loathing, and a twinge of guilt.

how could yin yu be dead, when he's so capable? why is it that she managed to survive when he didn't? it isn't fair. it isn't fair at all.

(survivor's guilt is a hell of a drug).

there's fear, too - a very specific kind of fear, like she's afraid of being left behind, of losing someone else important. and dread. what the hell is going to happen tomorrow? to have killed yin yu, yasusada must be terribly strong. and the chances of someone she cares about being forced into the execution ring are so high.

there are few people she doesn't care about in some way left alive, if any. no matter who faces him, she's going to be terrified for them tomorrow.

--and then there'll be a stirring of guilt, as she realizes that she's just made someone else feel all of this.]

—ah - I am sorry...

[voidbreaker]

[ britt: writes a beautiful and in depth introspective piece about the warring emotions within flayn’s heart and her deepest hopes and fears
me: (ash but in a bruce banner voice) angy ]

It’s fine, we’ve had a week to get used to it.

[ in fact he’s just gonna pat the immortal ancient lady on the head, like that’s any comfort right now. that tiredness is deeper now — like someone who’s just had enough but doesn’t know how to get out of that loop. it’s not a new feeling, it’s more like a two, two and half month feeling that’s just been growing more.

but it’s definitely angry, although that anger is old and festering and splintered in ways that aren’t clear or defined even to the owner themselves. it’s a really deep, endless sort of anger that’s always boiling away and bubbles up to the surface in blasts. ]

You couldn’t do shit about what happened to your masked friend. Whether that’s a comfort or not I dunno, but it’s the truth. Better to focus on figuring out who got the others and what’s going on here, than wallowing in shit you couldn't do.

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I know...

[she's.

trying. she'd tried to ignore her feelings during the trial, had tried to avoid touching other people there specifically to avoid people worrying over her emotional state while they had murders to solve. now they still have murders to solve, and she doesn't know what to do with herself.

she wishes she could just turn her feelings off, but she doesn't know how.

and what can they possibly investigate now that the trial is over? the evidence is gone, and the chances of them finding something to truly confirm anyone's guilt are slim.

frustration crosses her face there - that's defeatist thinking, and it won't do them any good.]

I am trying. But...

[it won't stop.]

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[ ... ]

[ man how do you deal with people in this state? ]

Getting mad at yourself for feeling's a waste of time. Feel whatever you want, just put that towards getting yourself into gear.

Guilty? Try and get a heads up on what's going on so we might be able to stop crap like this again. Angry? Get mad. Use it to drag information out of people, or the directors.

[ he's not a pep talk kind of guy, someone help. ]

Better than beating yourself up.

week 5; tuesday

[voidbreaker]

[ here we are, completing us a mystery task. ash is just sat on the stage itself, squinting over at the mountains and following the trail of the zip line with his eyes.

he's not really paying attention to what's around him. ]

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[clutches head

i thought i replied to this. oh my god. i guarantee you i'm going to get to work tomorrow and find the tab open on my work computer on preview or some dumb shit like that.

anyway. flayn looks a little surprised to see him there, but she calls out anyway -]

Ash?

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[ ah...

britt does not love me.... ]

...

[ oh. right. other people. ]

Greeny.

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[NO THAT'S A LIE I LOVE YOU A LOT

countdown to 20 minutes when i arrive at work and find the tag i originally wrote you]

...are you alright?

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[ did you find it? ]

Oh. Yeah.

It's just a bit quieter up here, so I thought I'd just sit.

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[I DID.

and then work got busy and shitposts happened when it got less busy.]

...I see... is there something on your mind, Ash?

[usually when she sees people seek out somewhere quiet it's because they're trying to think something through.]