...you don't have to apologize. [ yin yu mumbles, feeling -- unsure. he's felt this way around flayn more than once, but it's been a long time since it's been quite like this. he shouldn't be here, not when he's made her so upset, not when he's finally showed his true colors.
he can't leave her here crying, though. even if he still wants to run, he stays, letting her hold his hand, because flayn's assessment was correct. yin yu has given up on many things. right now, he's given up on trying to get away, shoving his feelings down to not be dealt with later. he'll let flayn do whatever she wants, if it helps, try to say anything to get her to stop crying, to make her feel better, but, ultimately, it will do nothing for him.
it's been hundreds of years since the incident with yizhen. there is no undoing centuries of self loathing, centuries of guilt. this will be it--he will comfort, and tomorrow, he will try to stay out of her way.
quietly, he lets his other hand drop away, and doesn't say anything else.
yin yu doesn't deserve to be anywhere close to someone like flayn. he's thought it since he got to know her.
the only difference is now, finally, she'll know it too. ]
flayn doesn't realize, yet, just how much it's going to suck. right now, the one hand that yin yu is allowing her to keep holding is a lifeline - she's able to start to calm herself, to wipe the tears away from her eyes, but only because he hasn't fully pulled away.
when that happens...
for now, though, she'll allow herself these few moments with his hand in hers, desperately trying to come up with something to comfort him. she comes up with nothing, except to try and stay near him, but.
that seems like it's more of a comfort to her than to him.
she doesn't know what to do. she just has no idea what to do, so she sits there with him, holding tightly to his hand.]
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he can't leave her here crying, though. even if he still wants to run, he stays, letting her hold his hand, because flayn's assessment was correct. yin yu has given up on many things. right now, he's given up on trying to get away, shoving his feelings down to not be dealt with later. he'll let flayn do whatever she wants, if it helps, try to say anything to get her to stop crying, to make her feel better, but, ultimately, it will do nothing for him.
it's been hundreds of years since the incident with yizhen. there is no undoing centuries of self loathing, centuries of guilt. this will be it--he will comfort, and tomorrow, he will try to stay out of her way.
quietly, he lets his other hand drop away, and doesn't say anything else.
yin yu doesn't deserve to be anywhere close to someone like flayn. he's thought it since he got to know her.
the only difference is now, finally, she'll know it too. ]
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flayn doesn't realize, yet, just how much it's going to suck. right now, the one hand that yin yu is allowing her to keep holding is a lifeline - she's able to start to calm herself, to wipe the tears away from her eyes, but only because he hasn't fully pulled away.
when that happens...
for now, though, she'll allow herself these few moments with his hand in hers, desperately trying to come up with something to comfort him. she comes up with nothing, except to try and stay near him, but.
that seems like it's more of a comfort to her than to him.
she doesn't know what to do. she just has no idea what to do, so she sits there with him, holding tightly to his hand.]