... No, I think you owe Yasusada one, for playing with his emotions even if you didn't have a choice--
[...]
But I made the final call to kill Yin Yu. It was between him and Magnus. So I owe you just as much of an apology for taking him away from you.
[Staring back at the ceiling, his voice steady but distant, lost in memories]
It's stupid, but... I asked Junpei if there were any Editors here. He told me no. So I stupidly stopped asking questions when I should've asked if there were any killing roles. If I'd realized...
[Well. Things would have gone differently. It's a moot point now.]
[She can owe more than one person an apology at a time, Sanji! ...but she falls silent so he can talk. This is clearly important to him, and, well. His feelings matter. They're lucky he's even here now to be able to talk about them - she certainly doesn't plan to talk over him.]
No, I... I think the only one who is owed an apology for that is Yin Yu. It was his life that was taken, after all.
[...did it hurt, to lose him? Yes. Absolutely. But it wasn't her life that had been at risk, there.]
...I wanted to tell you, when you and Akira found me. I thought at first, that you both knew, but...
[Ha, ha. Sanji and Yin Yu had a few conversations in the graveyard that were Something, and Sanji's gaze softens at the mention of him coming from Flayn...
Though it immediately snaps into a chuckle with no humor.]
All I got was that your title was Wicket. And like I said -- I didn't ask Junpei the right questions. I was just relieved I'd found another person.
[He feels... pretty fuckin stupid in retrospect, more hurt over his lack of foresight now that he has perspective to shame him. A hand runs through his hair]
... You wanted to warn Magnus during our fight, too.
[Yeah, he realized.]
Sorry, but I couldn't sacrifice a lady because of my own shitty luck. Not even for the game.
[... Flayn cursing is so cursed that Sanji stops and has to decide how he feels about this!!
Mm, don't like.
... But she's an adult and can say what she wants, so he'll just. Move along.]
Frankly? Yeah.
[... Huffing a sigh. Even if he's under no obligation to explain himself, Sanji figures he might as well -- to a fellow killer who had their hands tied]
Because I had a role. Not saying I wouldn't have been biased either way, but I wanted to survive to complete my duties.
[A shrug]
If I hadn't had a role, I would have lasted as long as I could've, and then maybe had asked Belph or Yasusada to kill me and let me go to the side of the dead, and relay information that way.
[At least he wasn't able to hear her say "fuck" on Friday.]
For what it is worth... had I been able to explain to him why I did not want to see you dead, I am sure that Magnus would have stayed his hand.
[It's her own failing, for not figuring out a better way around the censorship.]
...I kept thinking - that it might be important to do that, somehow. That there must be vital information on that side, and that there needed to be trustworthy people to convey it back to us, so we could all succeed. [...] I am glad that you were able to do what you could from there, although I am not at all happy that you died.
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w6, saturday
(if this is the kitchen, she really fucking shouldn't be.)]
...Sanji?
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But yes, he is here, lounged in a chair and staring up at the ceiling. His head gently tilts in her direction]
Ah, Flayn-chan.
[... A decidedly neutral response, given how Sanji usually acts, but his smile is at least polite]
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I am sorry - am I interrupting...? I can come back another time.
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[...]
Besides, it's probably best we talk and clear the shitty air.
[There are some of the murderers that Sanji has zero interest in speaking with, but... Flayn, for better or worse, isn't one of them]
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[she takes a breath.]
I... owe you an apology.
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[...]
But I made the final call to kill Yin Yu. It was between him and Magnus. So I owe you just as much of an apology for taking him away from you.
[Staring back at the ceiling, his voice steady but distant, lost in memories]
It's stupid, but... I asked Junpei if there were any Editors here. He told me no. So I stupidly stopped asking questions when I should've asked if there were any killing roles. If I'd realized...
[Well. Things would have gone differently. It's a moot point now.]
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[She can owe more than one person an apology at a time, Sanji! ...but she falls silent so he can talk. This is clearly important to him, and, well. His feelings matter. They're lucky he's even here now to be able to talk about them - she certainly doesn't plan to talk over him.]
No, I... I think the only one who is owed an apology for that is Yin Yu. It was his life that was taken, after all.
[...did it hurt, to lose him? Yes. Absolutely. But it wasn't her life that had been at risk, there.]
...I wanted to tell you, when you and Akira found me. I thought at first, that you both knew, but...
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Though it immediately snaps into a chuckle with no humor.]
All I got was that your title was Wicket. And like I said -- I didn't ask Junpei the right questions. I was just relieved I'd found another person.
[He feels... pretty fuckin stupid in retrospect, more hurt over his lack of foresight now that he has perspective to shame him. A hand runs through his hair]
... You wanted to warn Magnus during our fight, too.
[Yeah, he realized.]
Sorry, but I couldn't sacrifice a lady because of my own shitty luck. Not even for the game.
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[It's something of a relief, to know that at least one of them had realized. She wasn't sure if he had or hadn't.
But, knowing that he had--]
...is that why you told him to... how did you phrase it, "eat shit and die"? You would have been okay with sacrificing him?
[Magnus had apparently been one of his considerations for murder, so... the prospect doesn't shock Flayn as much as it might otherwise.]
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Mm, don't like.
... But she's an adult and can say what she wants, so he'll just. Move along.]
Frankly? Yeah.
[... Huffing a sigh. Even if he's under no obligation to explain himself, Sanji figures he might as well -- to a fellow killer who had their hands tied]
Because I had a role. Not saying I wouldn't have been biased either way, but I wanted to survive to complete my duties.
[A shrug]
If I hadn't had a role, I would have lasted as long as I could've, and then maybe had asked Belph or Yasusada to kill me and let me go to the side of the dead, and relay information that way.
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For what it is worth... had I been able to explain to him why I did not want to see you dead, I am sure that Magnus would have stayed his hand.
[It's her own failing, for not figuring out a better way around the censorship.]
...I kept thinking - that it might be important to do that, somehow. That there must be vital information on that side, and that there needed to be trustworthy people to convey it back to us, so we could all succeed. [...] I am glad that you were able to do what you could from there, although I am not at all happy that you died.