[RNG says they are meeting in the kitchen, so. I assume they're both here to get something warm to eat or drink? Flayn, for her part, is looking for tea.
[She has! It's still chilly, but. She's changed into dry clothes.
...she shakes her head when Shinobu speaks up.]
You were braver than I - you made that choice knowing it would mean your life.
[She couldn't have known someone would then be stepping into her role.
Flayn doesn't need to ask who she means by "him".]
...I am the one who suggested him. [...] We were trying to think of someone who would... understand, if we could find a way around what we were not able to say, to explain it.
[ Enough have said that it was a brave choice, but was it? Even if Shinobu doesn't regret making it, can she herself call it brave?
She shakes her head but drops it after that. While she didn't know someone would replace her in her role, it still weighed on her. Everything about the role weighs unimaginable on those that held it. ]
And you were right, in the end, but still, it must have hurt to suggest him.
[ After all, with the loss if Yin Yu the week before— ]
You are stronger than most could ever think to be.
[Dimitri is, after all, the one who died. The one who - because he trusted her - ended up leaving behind people that he cared for.
It must have felt very much like a betrayal. No, it didn't just feel like it - it was one.]
I kept... hoping, that we would be able to find a way to end all this before it had to happen, but... we were not. [...] Now all I can hope for is that we did end up finding a way to end this after all, and that you and the others who are sleeping will be safe.
If that is what happens tomorrow, then...
[She won't really say that it will be worth it, because no one should have died in the first place - but it would be the best possible outcome that she can think of, short of finding a way to go back in time and ensure that no one died at all.]
I can't say it didn't hurt him, but I don't want this to be about who's hurting more. We've all been hurt.
[ She's gentle in pointing that out, but it's not that she doesn't understand. It's just she doesn't want this to be some comparison. An acknowledgment would be better even if Flayn doesn't want to talk about it more. ]
I am sure you were all hoping it would come to a close like this sooner. Week after week of killing like that— [ How much it would have weighed on all of them. ]
If tomorrow meets us safely, we will all have a chance to make things better, in a way that isn't forced.
[ It will still be a lot of work, but they will all have more of a choice. ]
That's definitely true. This has hurt more than Flayn knows how to even begin to say. What she does know, though, is that people were hurt because of what she did. She doesn't really feel like she has the right to complain about how much it hurt, because the very things that hurt her also heaped suffering onto everyone around her.
...but it might be okay to admit it to Shinobu. She was her original partner, after all, so after a moment - Flayn nods once.]
It hurt terribly.
[The words come out very, very quietly, and then she's moving on, because she feels a little uncomfortable just having spoken them.]
...tomorrow must meet us safely. If it does not... [Her brow furrows.] It did not look as though attacking that creature would do us much good, but there must... be some way.
[ Shinobu won't press after that. Her expression softens, and she puts a gentle hand on Flayn's arm. There is no erasing or excusing what they've all done, the suffering they've caused, but she doesn't want to say she doesn't understand that pain. She doesn't want to say they can't feel pain just because they also caused it.
This camp was crafted to generate suffering for everyone ]
The gifts that they responded to well— We'd have to suggest something more in a similar vein.
...I wonder if perhaps we ought to have offered them the demons from the boat, after all.
[That idea had been shot down during the trial, but the more Flayn thinks about it, the more she thinks Pandora really would have enjoyed hanging out with them.
Which is cursed.]
I suppose it is something to bear in mind, if tomorrow does not turn out how we want it to.
(Flayn feels a little sick with herself for that thought, but she can't deny that she thinks it, for just a brief moment, and that the thought of the snake being wiped from existence isn't wholly unpleasant.)]
...do you think that it will? I keep thinking it over, but... truly, I do not know what our chances are.
[ Shinobu would have been fine if they did destroy each other. Some things, after all the suffering they've caused, should be wiped out. After every choice made is a result and a consequence, and creatures made of suffering, creatures who only want to cause cause suffering are better ended. ]
It accepted some of what was presented, so there's a fifty percent chance.
[ Those are not the greatest odds, but anything is better than zero. Shinobu isn't made of optimism, but she doesn't want to spend this night being all doom and gloom. ]
It depends on the child. [ ... ] Some lose the ability to be, after what they experience, but I think this misbehaving child we have to take care of is.
[ It's just snaby doesn't seem to be entertained for long. ]
But when you're young and don't know much of the world, everything is new and attention-catching.
[...it's like that when you're old and don't know much of the world, too! But Flayn won't say that out loud.]
So long as their attention is caught long enough for a way to prevent them from hurting other people...
[even if that means finding a way to, uh, kill their angst baby, it'll be fine, won't it? if the snaby's attention can be caught long enough, they can find some more permanent solution.
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fishingforcompliments) wrote2020-06-07 01:31 pm
w6, saturday
(...too soon?)
When she sees her there, though, she pauses.]
...Shinobu?
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Shinobu defaults to tea as a drink of choice at all times, but the tea does remind her of one question she had. ]
I am still sorry I left you behind.
[ That will remain true for all that her choice said otherwise. ]
And I was surprised you agreed to choose him last week.
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...she shakes her head when Shinobu speaks up.]
You were braver than I - you made that choice knowing it would mean your life.
[She couldn't have known someone would then be stepping into her role.
Flayn doesn't need to ask who she means by "him".]
...I am the one who suggested him. [...] We were trying to think of someone who would... understand, if we could find a way around what we were not able to say, to explain it.
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She shakes her head but drops it after that. While she didn't know someone would replace her in her role, it still weighed on her. Everything about the role weighs unimaginable on those that held it. ]
And you were right, in the end, but still, it must have hurt to suggest him.
[ After all, with the loss if Yin Yu the week before— ]
You are stronger than most could ever think to be.
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[Dimitri is, after all, the one who died. The one who - because he trusted her - ended up leaving behind people that he cared for.
It must have felt very much like a betrayal. No, it didn't just feel like it - it was one.]
I kept... hoping, that we would be able to find a way to end all this before it had to happen, but... we were not. [...] Now all I can hope for is that we did end up finding a way to end this after all, and that you and the others who are sleeping will be safe.
If that is what happens tomorrow, then...
[She won't really say that it will be worth it, because no one should have died in the first place - but it would be the best possible outcome that she can think of, short of finding a way to go back in time and ensure that no one died at all.]
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[ She's gentle in pointing that out, but it's not that she doesn't understand. It's just she doesn't want this to be some comparison. An acknowledgment would be better even if Flayn doesn't want to talk about it more. ]
I am sure you were all hoping it would come to a close like this sooner. Week after week of killing like that— [ How much it would have weighed on all of them. ]
If tomorrow meets us safely, we will all have a chance to make things better, in a way that isn't forced.
[ It will still be a lot of work, but they will all have more of a choice. ]
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That's definitely true. This has hurt more than Flayn knows how to even begin to say. What she does know, though, is that people were hurt because of what she did. She doesn't really feel like she has the right to complain about how much it hurt, because the very things that hurt her also heaped suffering onto everyone around her.
...but it might be okay to admit it to Shinobu. She was her original partner, after all, so after a moment - Flayn nods once.]
It hurt terribly.
[The words come out very, very quietly, and then she's moving on, because she feels a little uncomfortable just having spoken them.]
...tomorrow must meet us safely. If it does not... [Her brow furrows.] It did not look as though attacking that creature would do us much good, but there must... be some way.
There has to be a way to make this better.
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This camp was crafted to generate suffering for everyone ]
The gifts that they responded to well— We'd have to suggest something more in a similar vein.
[ Give Pandora all the villains. ]
If they'd even take more "gifts" after today.
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[That idea had been shot down during the trial, but the more Flayn thinks about it, the more she thinks Pandora really would have enjoyed hanging out with them.
Which is cursed.]
I suppose it is something to bear in mind, if tomorrow does not turn out how we want it to.
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[ From seeing what was accepted, perhaps they should have offloaded everything they considered cursed and contemptible. ]
We'll have to have hope that it does.
[ They only have so much left. ]
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(Flayn feels a little sick with herself for that thought, but she can't deny that she thinks it, for just a brief moment, and that the thought of the snake being wiped from existence isn't wholly unpleasant.)]
...do you think that it will? I keep thinking it over, but... truly, I do not know what our chances are.
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It accepted some of what was presented, so there's a fifty percent chance.
[ Those are not the greatest odds, but anything is better than zero. Shinobu isn't made of optimism, but she doesn't want to spend this night being all doom and gloom. ]
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That is better than it could have been.
[so she's grateful for that much, at least.]
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[ So she's grasping onto that chance. ]
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[A handful of gifts that they hadn't totally hated was a pleasant surprise.]
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[ It's only hindsight that makes her realize she should've considered how baby it is instead of just a born monster of suffering. ]
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[she hasn't been a child for, like, a millennium. she doesn't know.]
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[ It's just snaby doesn't seem to be entertained for long. ]
But when you're young and don't know much of the world, everything is new and attention-catching.
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So long as their attention is caught long enough for a way to prevent them from hurting other people...
[even if that means finding a way to, uh, kill their angst baby, it'll be fine, won't it? if the snaby's attention can be caught long enough, they can find some more permanent solution.
or not, if crau ............... 2 is a thing]